The Fear of Being Alone

I’ve had this conversation many a times with friends. I thought I was alone in having a fear of being alone. Turns out, many of us have this fear. It doesn’t mean we like being around large groups of humans either. It only means we can’t be by ourselves, or don’t know how to be by ourselves, at home or outside.

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As sparks fly.

People will try to hurt you with words- people who call themselves your friends will go around in circles, sometimes kicking you down, just so they can stay afloat. It’s called self-interest, and it usually transcends friendship and similar sentiments. There will be better people- people who stay by your side as the world starts…

The chase

None of the theories of emotion make sense to me as I sat there wondering if it is possible that I am very much desensitized. I do not seem to feel or process the same emotions that these people do, even in the midst of trying events. I drift away for a moment, fantasizing about…

People are people.

I give up on people. I give up on trying to help a people that are so blinded by what they see that they do not realize that they’re trapped in a bubble of delusions. I give up thinking that things would and could change; that they could somehow see what I see, but no.…

Vacant.

I flipped the pages but my words were nowhere to be found. Desperate, but true. I gaze though the window at the leaves outside, falling each time the breeze comes by. I pictured myself having some sort of epiphany as I stared into nothingness, but no, it doesn’t work that way. Still, I continue to…

Not like you.

I have always wondered about the mysteries of the regular person. The people I walk by each day. People just living their lives, getting an education, a job, falling in love and well, growing. Communal living has always been a foreign concept to me. I do not particularly have difficulty working with people, although my…

Shaken

I used to write freely, about any and everything. I used to be able to churn out wonderful pieces of work, just like that, as and when I wanted. I still can, except it’s much harder, and it doesn’t work all the time. For months, maybe even years, I wondered, what changed? At first I…