Closure

Goodbyes are something that some may take for granted. It is just a word, right? Two syllables that mean almost nothing. But one thing that I have regretted most the last 7 years is how I never got the chance to say that word to my best friend before she took her last breath, thousands…

Happy Birthday, Me.

25 is when your brain “fully develops”, or at least that’s what science claims happens. I don’t feel the slightest bit mature. I spent approximately 21 hours of my birthday in my room – my sanctuary. A place I retreat to because I’m a lazy fuck, and could lie on my bed while I entertain…

When Dying is the Only Way Out

I do feel like sometimes the world is closing in on me. I have moments when I would have crying fits that seem to never stop. There are times when it feels as though you’ve tried everything to be happy, but, you can’t. I’m broken inside. Just like many out there. I feel helpless, hopeless.…

Would you kill yourself?

Would you kill yourself? Would you follow all the steps in a suicide manual and follow them through? Or would you give up halfway? “Coward.” Would you strip yourself in the cold and bury your breasts in the snow, telling yourself over and over again, “this isn’t pain, this isn’t pain yet” and proceed to…

Minutes before Death

They say that minutes before you die, your entire life flashes before your eyes- it isn’t like that.  At least for me. When my head hit the concrete floor, I couldn’t hear anything. My world looked like it was crumbling down, going all haywire because I was knocked off and…nothing. The last thing I could remember…

Insanity is a choice

Let’s talk about people. First, clear your mind, lest you picture me cynical. People are always talking about people. We’re talking about how great it used to be, or how great it’s going to be or maybe just how great it is right now. We talk, about people. In the world we live in today…