Happy birthday, self.

I guess I should begin by thanking people, because it’s what people do. Thank you, everyone, for the kind wishes and continual support, from people who are true, the hypocrites, and everyone in-between.

It’s been a tough year, but then again, every year is tough and it’s hard to measure which is tougher. There isn’t a need to. I am thankful for the people who have been with me throughout my journey.

As I gain one more year of experience, insight, friends, losses and so on, I am glad to have what I have, and be what I am. If I could do it some other way, I would, but I can’t, so I’ll tell you that I wouldn’t change a thing, because again, lying to ourselves and others is what people do, and so I shall too.

As one might expect, I’ve met a lot of people, and a lot of people have left. Similarly, I’ve had the opportunity to be better acquainted with the voices in my head. I have not named them yet, as I’m not quite sure if they’re the same ones, or different ones that come and go as they please. I’ve had people who pulled through for me, but as the disappointments stack up, I’m still not sure if I believe in people just yet. Perhaps, someday I might.

Still, all in all, I am thankful for the people and the things that I am blessed with. I have little to complain about besides everything that goes on within me. As far as living life goes, I suppose I have it quite good, and it would/should appear so. Thank you, again, for
being part of my story (or chapter), good or bad, for better or worse, you’ve made your mark, and you’ve made me the person that I am today.

I will continue to endeavor to love better, and love more, friends, acquaintances and enemies alike. I will strive to bear no grudges and to forgive as much as I can, and should I fail, I will work towards having the capacity to do so. I wish for the people who bear grudges against me to be blessed with the capacity to forgive, as I hope to be able to do myself.

Most of all, I hope that I can love myself better. To forgive myself for my imperfections and countless sins. I hope that someday I can feel worthy enough to go back to where I belong, a place where I’d once found love, hope and most of all, faith.

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One thought on “Happy birthday, self.

  1. Happy Birthday! Try not to be so hard on yourself. What is a person, if he has no regrets? What is a person, if he has no fears? What is a person, if he has no dreams? He’s unlike everyone else. We all how our doubts, regrets, worries and troubles, but we look towards today and tomorrow with hope, dreams and life. I hope you always see the better side of life; the beauty beyond the obvious and the inspiration to see tomorrow as a fresh new start. Happy Birthday (from a follower on instagram)

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