“Nothing in this universe happens just once, nothing; infinity goes in both directions. There is no unique event, no singular moment”
For the most part, our lives are epic. Sure, we’ve all had times when we’d be down in the gutter. We tend to remember that more. Us humans, we have a tendency to remember the bad more vividly than the good. It’s human nature, right?
What we forget is that the good times, no matter how short-lived, also shaped us. Nobody ever talks about their first kiss anymore. Or the first time they see their favorite band play live. Or the times you just sit with your mates, and talk about ridiculous nonsense, laughing your heart out.
I have to remind myself daily that I am someone. I matter. I have a story to tell. I have a dream to live. I am living my dream. I am beautiful inside and out. My exterior shell may be flawed but when I look in the mirror, I am perfect.
I may have had my heart broken, not yet mended. But my friends help me fill that gap in. With every bit of laughter, I heal a little. With every hug, I am putting back a missing piece. With every hello, I feel a little more complete. No matter how annoying my friends may get, I will love them more. With every heated conversation, I will respect them more.
I don’t have much. My best friends are about the only friends I have left. The rest, I consider them mere acquaintances. I don’t have money. I don’t have worldly possessions. I am not an heir to an esteemed estate. I have not done much in my life, not yet. But one day, I will.
I know what it’s like to have everything. And have anything you want given to you. I also know what it’s like when all of that is taken away. But that is one experience I treasure the most. I have experienced both ends of the stick. This is life. And life is what you make of it. You are in control of your emotions. Maybe not your thoughts, not all the time, but you are in control of your emotions. You determine if you will be happy, if you will get over that hurtful comment and enjoy what life has to offer, if you will drown in sorrow, if you will get out of that shithole once you’re in it. You have all the power you need.
You are the only person you have to impress. Fuck what people think. In fact, fuck what they say to you or behind your back. Who are they to judge you? Everyone is flawed in their own way. People are stupid. People are smart. People are hurtful. People are kind. Nobody is one or the other. We all have our moments. But they are only bad moments if we let it be. People judge me all the time – but that doesn’t bother me, not anymore.
Show kindness even when none is shown. I’ve done things for people and not get anything in return. Sure, it feels like you’re not appreciated. But fuck it. Do it because it’s kind. Do it because it’s good. Do it because that’s who you want to be. The world isn’t at your feet. It doesn’t revolve around you either. But you are someone to somebody, to yourself. Don’t ever forget that.
Love yourself. Learn how to love you before you give a little piece of your love to someone else.